Fallout

So I think I will do the short story idea with the list of topics I posted earlier. Not long. Maybe a paragraph on each which should be suitably tricky. Plus hopefully, then you’re not reading for ages so I won’t lose any followers!

Today has been the worst. I had quite an intensive physiotherapy yesterday so everything now hurting like hell. I’ll work through it, only one way to get better, and getting off my lazy bum is the beginning, They’ve booked me on Mondays and Wednesdays now, with a sheet or two of homework too. Not used to walking with two sticks so they are trying to teach me that.

Today I and Dobby went on a mission to the vet this morning, in the mist and drizzle. Well no. If I was normal then yes, I had to get an Uber allowing pets to come to collect us and drop us off again. The good news, she isn’t going to die or need surgery. But the ball and socket on her right hip is really worn out so she’s been diagnosed with Early Onset Arthritis and Hip Dysplasia. She’s not allowed off the lead anymore nor made to dance around on her two legs as it will all hurt her badly later on.

So yes, we got the Uber back to the house, and I thought I would try walking her in the little green space opposite the house. My back started spasmising so we rushed inside so I could sit down. Open the door and pure carnage. Nina managed to drag out and eat a loaf of bread and a pack of crackers from the kitchen countertop. She dragged them. Ate them. Chewed some. Ran around on top of them to *really* get it into the carpet. Kicked Nina and Dobby out and the clean-up began. Managed to pick up everything, get the hoover out, and made sure everywhere was clean. I was stumbling and tripping over everything but the worst, was my back, like some little bastard was stabbing me in my lower spine. After letting them back in. I just sat on the sofa unable to move for an hour.

Nina is still not in the good books. D gave her some dinner since I refused to due to the amount of crap she had eaten before. But ok. Can’t starve the dog as punishment. I should have hidden the crackers and secured the bin.

Onto typing stories! should not be a problem given issues with daydreaming and missing time. Again. That driver’s license seems to be getting further and further away.

I’m Trapped in My Own Mind

I’ve been struggling with something for a long time, and I’m finally ready to talk about it. I’m trapped in my own mind. It’s not like I’m daydreaming all the time. It’s more like I’m living in a different world. A world where I’m not in control, can’t escape but everything is perfect.

But then, suddenly, I’m back in reality. And I’m lost.

It happens at random times. Sometimes I’m at work, and sometimes I’m at home. It doesn’t matter what I’m doing, or who I’m with. I just start to drift off. And then, before I know it, I’m in this other world. It’s a beautiful world. The sun is always shining, and the flowers are always in bloom. There’s no pain, no suffering, no sadness.

I’m always happy but scared in this world. I can do anything I want. I can fly, I can swim, I can talk to animals. But I cannot break free from it. But then, the dream starts to fade. And I start to come back to reality.

And I’m not happy anymore. I’m scared. I don’t want to leave this world. Which world is it.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want to talk to my doctor, but they won’t understand. I’m starting to think that I’m crazy. But I know I’m not. I know that this is real. I just need to find a way to control it. I need to find a way to stay in this world forever.

If you’re reading this, and you know what’s wrong with me, please help me. I’m so scared. I don’t know what to do.

🙁