Tag: fatigue

I’m only happy when it rains.

Andy Young3 Comments

Hello world.

I can finally stare at the screen in all its white glory and type at the same time. The sore head has healed. Although I have a bang on my head again. Side of my head this time, weird place to bang. must have been against the wall when I was sleeping. I sleep in this real messed up position thanks to months on the sofa. Curled up, head pressed against the wall. Like a sofa shape. Well, a sleeping on the sofa kind of shape. Best friend said it’ll take a while for the body to adjust. Hope so. Laying down normally causes lower back spasms.


Oh OH while I’m on it. The back brace came in today while I was dog sitting. Put it on, after a lot of faff it didn’t work. The pain still came in, loud and clear as usual. I tried it a few more times during the day but same result. You must line it up perfectly to get the splint to sit in the right spot. Now with someone with reduced left side strength, trying to pull as tightly as I can on the stretchy belt.. yeah, I slapped myself in the face a few times. SO back it goes from whence it came.
Crap. Two tea bags left. Somehow, I will try and survive the night. But morning. That’ll be a hard one. I’m still doing coffee and tea in the morning, then coffee from the bean to cup all day then tea in the evenings. Yorkshire tea that is.

I was supposed to go out with a friend for dinner, but my head is feeling like crap at the moment. Thoughts are scattered, repeated trips to the house not helping with memories and I’m having all sorts of weird body problems lately. My right arm had been dead all day. I could dip my fingers in boiling hot water and didn’t feel a thing. My whole right hand and forearm are just numb. It’s a bit better now but the tips are still numb. Probably another side effect. See how it is tomorrow, might have just slept weird.


Some photos I came by today:

I miss my computer and the heavily abused stream deck, also the pretty town you see is Pandy Tudur over in north Wales where we used to live. I had a drone and was messing around with it above the house and took the shot.


The dogs are the constantly mentioned Dobby and Nina that I seem to spend my days dog sitting! I don’t mind the company to be honest. Nina has an early appointment with the vet. She’ll be put under and then her teeth sorted out. She’s missing a few and we think it needs a closer look because she is being fussy about chewing. Hopefully, she will be ok and won’t die from the anaesthetic.

QOTD – Sort of

Andy Young1 Comment

The question of the day was about nicknames. I don’t really have one, I did in high school but those days are long gone and bring back unpleasant memories. I’d like a nickname. I often wonder what people would call me if they knew me. The bitter man. That’s an appropriate one. I guess it would make me feel socially connected. For that, I would need friends. Of which I have one. Who doesn’t live anywhere near me? I need to take people’s advice and start going to groups and things. Not only to get me out of the house but to meet people as well. I managed to go out yesterday, D took me to an appointment in town and I hobble about a bit but managed it. The next step is the park again if I can work up the motivation as fatigue and FND symptoms are playing up today.

See I work Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday from 10am to 2pm. All online at the moment, we have a nice system setup but it would be nice to go to the office on Tuesday and Wednesday, at least for a few hours. On Friday they run a food bank thing in the morning at one of the buildings in the city center for the homeless, so wanted to go to that. Be more involved. Today I also managed to update the side project website. I’m trying to make it a repository of digital articles for people to access as a resource. It’s called Busy Bee Tech but need to get it noticed somehow. I’m alright with with SEO in terms of putting tags on things but open to advice on how to get it in front of people. I’ve set it up so it posts to LinkedIn so was hoping to pick up traffic that way or should I throw a few pounds at an advert? wouldn’t know where to start. It’s odd. I used to do this stuff and the knowledge is fragmented at best.

I have a secret addiction to buying trading cards. Well. Guess it’s not that secret when you see the collection. But in recent weeks, I’ve been using the spare money I have to buy Pokemon cards, DC Heroes cards, and some other bits. That in itself isn’t the weird thing. The weird thing is that I haven’t opened them. I have four boxes each with various packet amounts in them. It’s weird because usually I would have ripped them open the moment I received them and put them into a binder. I guess I lack the interest anymore? or I’m waiting for the right moment. Like when x is done then I’ll do it. Right now, as soon as I get my housing sorted I can open them. But that might take months. Weird.

Rambliiiiiing.

Sorry about the increasingly bad short stories, they made the last of them REALLY difficult to do. But tried my best.

I had another FND thing today. The left side of the body went numb for 30 minutes. No other symptoms with it so I’ll take that as a sign it wasn’t a stroke. Stupid illness.