It has a back light

So the laptop that I’m borrowing has a proper full size keyboard on it which makes typing so much easier. The keyboard is backlit which is beyond awesome (still working on using that word less) for me as I can sit in the dark and type a blog post. Because sitting in the dark with the curtains closed is normal at 5pm in the summer 0.o

I went to the office today in the end. I was stood in the room, all my stuff ready. Car keys, room keys, phone and pipe. Then after 5 minutes of shoes on shoes off I managed to make it to the car. There I sat thinking. The apprentice wont be in so any point of me going in? will they want to see me? do they even know me? lots of illogical random questions. Then I thought. “Fuck it”, slammed the car into gear and off I fled. I survived 4 hours which is a personal best for being in one place that isnt where I sleep. It was nice to talk to everyone at the charity as always. Plus one of them has a dog and omg hes awesome. Hes a bull mastif I think. Head twice the size of the body and wiggling pile of muscle. Who kept jumping on Judy which was sweet. Sorted out a few more laptops, tablets and phones ready for going out into the world.

I was going to walk around town but my back is really sore, I’ve avoided pain killers because we all know what Andy does when he’s around drugs. He eats them all. Managed to get back to the motel in one piece and nipped to the garage next door and grabbed some bits for dinner & breakfast. Then proceeded to sort out my meds from paper bags to the storage bag so its neat and tidy.

Christ almighty its karaoke night. Headphones on. If its not drunken bumwars in the corridor and car park its singing. I wouldn’t mind if they had talent but are they deaf?! leave it to the pros.

I’m with the kids tomorrow 9-4 which I’m looking forward to. I saw them yesterday as Ben was ill so I popped over. I say popped over but this place is on the outskirts on Bolton. Egh. Its worth it. He got the new Forza yesterday and hooked his steering wheel to my computer and sent me a few video clips. I’ll try and upload them after this.

I need the hotel door wedge lock thing. Hopefully they’ll find a place for me somewhere. I keep bidding on properties but never get close to anything. I know they’ve formally declared me homeless so they have a duty to find a place or keep me here till they do. Which is great, its made a massive difference to my mental health. Had a wobble to begin with but I handled it. They extended it till Tuesday next week but the Monday is a bank holiday so not sure if they are extending it again before Monday. Hopefully they will.

I’m using Microsoft Edge. Trialling it, see if it competes with Firefox which I’ve used since they were around. Netscape. Anyone remember that one?

A good day

I did it! I finally went and bloody did it. D stayed home, and I finally got out. For three hours. But short as it was I made it to the office. I got hugs from everyone there and spoke with my apprentice face-to-face for an hour, which we usually do over email or the phone. It was awesome.

But my god am I tired.

I did well with the driving, got there in one piece without ramming anyone off the road and because I have a blue badge I parked right outside. Working out whether to take the stick out first or not was confusing but we got there. We talked tech, updating each other on everything, looking over the work that Jamie has done and what there is to be done next. I would LOVE to go to the digital sessions being run tomorrow morning but don’t think I can as D will be out. That is with Lakeem. I met him face-to-face for the first time today. Nice guy. I only saw the others briefly as they went straight into a meeting.

Got home, well, to the house now, safe and sound. Passed out on the sofa. My day is done. Hoping to join a swimming pool club tomorrow so maybe I can sneak out in the early morning or evening for a swim and start to get this weight off me. I haven’t been moving around as much, for obvious reasons, so I need to start some form of gentle exercise and that seems the best. Plus love swimming. Used to be in clubs from when I was a baby and then competing in primary and high school.