Yes. Yes, I do.
See I’m fortunate, some may disagree with that, taking an obscene amount of medication daily. Any fears, anxiety or doubts are usually fleeting. When the crunch comes I always rise to the call. I’m terrible on a 121 basis, but in a group setting, herding people into groups to accomplish tasks whilst focussing on the bigger picture has never really been a problem. Most jobs in my life have been fiendishly stressful and draining. Thanks to those medications it made me inebriated and loose enough to function well.
Head of marketing and IT was my hardest job, leading a team of coders, designers and tech staff gave me a lot of pleasure in seeing how well we all worked together. Because of that great team work, I was able to relax and the 121 stuff wasn’t so bad in the end.
I’m not afraid to be the first one to say Yes! or speak up in a room. I am likely to talk over you to be heard. I can and will be a twat. The total opposite of what I am outside of work. I’m defensive of my team and would take a hit for them frequently. I would use my bonus to buy them things, flowers, toys, and spa days. We would have a monthly meal somewhere nice for lunch.
Unfortunately, you then get jealous people, such as an operations director, who had no control over my team become very rattled and insecure. He pushed me at every turn to leave the company and eventually after my mental health ‘broke’ I was gone. Huh. In a previous answer to QOTD I said I had no grudges. He has a grudge. Down and down I plummeted to a lifestyle of drugs, unhealthy coping skills and struggling to keep going. I self-harmed excessively, dabbled in suicide and was unstable.
Huh. Can see why the wife left me rea…………. When the hell did this post become so damn depressing.
Are you a leader?
Yes. Yes I believe I am
Done.
