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A healthy dose of EGO

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What are 3 traits I love about yourself? describe them in detail.

That’s like the biggest ego massage of a question, what happens if you don’t love yourself, have no redeeming qualities and generally suck? … self-esteem issues, me? No. Of course not.

Kindness
I will find all ways of pleasing someone in as much capacity as possible. Whether it’s giving something back to the homeless or picking up sweets randomly for the kids. Apparently, I do this to a fault. People become accustomed to this treatment and I end up not enjoying it any more which sucks. But before that, it makes me insanely happy to see someone else being happy because of my small gesture. Skin-tingly nice feelings.

Loyalty
From keeping a secret about a boy you like or that suspicious new flower bed in the garden. You can count on me to keep you loyal. I don’t think I have ever jumped ship on anyone and pretty much all my friends will have me fighting in their corners Hell I spent three years of uni looking after my drunken breather and got them home safe each night. Do you want to take on an army? O’ll be stood side by side with you facing impossible odds. Whatever it takes.

Is It bad that I can only think of two traits? The rest in my mind are terrible when I think about them. Negative traits I could talk about in another post.

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Quotes

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I figured I would try something new and do a quotes run of all my favourites. Hopefully you’ll enjoy them. They always help me in sad times to help not dwell on things for too long.

“Attitude is a choice. Happiness is a choice. Optimism is a choice. Kindness is a choice. Giving is a choice. Respect is a choice. Whatever choice you make makes you. Choose wisely.”
― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

Really love and try to stay true to it, although hard at times to see clearly what choice to choose.

“There is no pretending,” Jace said with absolute clarity. “I love you, and I will love you until I die, and if there is life after that, I’ll love you then.”
― Cassandra Clare, City of Glass

Totally true. If you’ve found the one you can feel this resonate.

“I’ve never fooled anyone. I’ve let people fool themselves. They didn’t bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn’t argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn’t.”
― Marilyn Monroe

Yes its from Marilyn Monroe. Still true for me sadly, you can put on so many faces or let people assume things about you that sometimes its easier just to do that.

Short Story: About Abandonment

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The little girl sat on the curb, her suitcase next to her. She had been waiting for hours, but her parents hadn’t come.

She didn’t know why they had left her. She had been a good girl, she had done everything they had asked of her. But it hadn’t been enough.

She was scared. She didn’t know where she was going to go or what she was going to do. She just knew that she was all alone.

She started to cry. She cried for her parents, she cried for herself, and she cried for the future that she didn’t know if she would have.

A woman walking by saw the little girl crying and stopped. “What’s wrong?” she asked.

The little girl told her the story, and the woman listened. When the little girl was finished, the woman said, “Don’t worry, sweet heart. I’ll help you.”

The woman took the little girl to her house and gave her a place to stay. She helped the little girl find a new school and make new friends. And she helped the little girl heal from the pain of abandonment.

The little girl never forgot the woman who helped her. She knew that she would never have been able to get through that time without her.

Black dog is chasing me down

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It’s hard. You know it’s hard but I’m not trying to undermine your thoughts. It should be simple and in the minds of most people who have never had an addiction, it is a simple thing. I’m craving vast amounts of alcohol again. I find myself on different websites adding things to the basket but never actually going through with it. Just one last drink I tell myself, pure and utter lies, if I let myself have one then I will want three after that. I guess I just needed a moan. I stopped myself so I do have control over it. Smoking for over 30 years and somehow have switched 100% over to vaping. The addiction doesn’t come close to how hard it was to do that.

I know it’s not a great switch from cig to pipe but it was and is the start of starting a new chapter, Where I am well enough to take the kids out, that the panic attacks will down. Wel. I keep telling myself that, eventually, there will be a day with no reliance on anything. I’ll make a list and do a poll on there to see which direction to which to try first,

A very young me, my Uncle Henk, Oma, and Oma (dutch grandparents) before a fishing session in the lape and canal behind Henks; house. This photo brings back memories especially now that they are both long dead. We would have genuine calls saying hello, hope you are well, and things, It was always brief as Oma doesn’t know any English.

Anyways be awesome to each other.