I never quite understood work politics. It has always been something that I’ve steered clear of, however, I seem to get drawn into it more and more to protect my staff. Its the blame culture that I disagree with so much. I never quite understood why someone couldn’t stand up and proclaim “It was me, I made the mistake”, learn from it (depending on severity) and move on. Instead, people have to be devious and calculating which causes so much more hassle and messes with the office ‘karma’. Leaving certain people in a corner where they have to correct the mess.
I’ve learned quite well to try and split personal and work into two different boxes. I’m a firm believer in ‘clocking’ off whenever you possibly can. A lot of my role, means working 12 hour days, so I try and take the breaks whenever I can, seriously. Its spilled into my personal life a few times now, with disasterous consequences. It is always quite terrifying, my work persona is 100% different to how I act in ‘real life’. When there was a snow day at the start of the year, I had to work from home. Co-ordinating staff whilst I was repairing the telecoms system remotely caused me to go into work mode. I could only appologise to J’s dropped face as she heard me shouting down the phone, rallying troops and arguing with various site engineers. My work persona is a twat. Arrogant, determined, very outspoken and outgoing. It has to be that way for me to survive and ‘get up the ladder’. It work’s quite well, and I know for a fact I wouldn’t be where I am now without it.
Fortunately, the people that matter to me at work know who I am. Probably through one of the ‘IT thank you days’ where I take the select few out for lunch on me. I like those afternoons out. The one time where I pull rank and give everyone an hour and a free lunch. Also part of why I love doing the catering at work for the meetings, its fun & relaxing. I can also try out different foods for people, except vegitarians, and its a way of getting along with everyone.
It made me feel better typing that out. Work is a huge part of my life at the moment, something which I know I need to seperate a bit better to free up my life a bit more. Its a vicious cycle because it will involve hiring more people to delegate to, then spend my days buried in paper work which is something I loathe. Helping with new marketing ideas, programming and creating core systems is something I enjoy more.
And cooking. I should open a bakery. Or a resturant, although bakery would be fantastic because I could bake things all day. I’m aware there is probably more to it than that. Ok. So a bakery in Whitby or Scarborough, with a house and a seaview and I’ll be quite content.
Complete subject change now. Yesterday after I posted I started looking at photos on the laptop. I noticed a few of JD when he was a puppy. It still amazes me how massive he is now. Own orbiting planets and everything!